I'm so tired. From what, is beyond me...
There are so many plans clouding my mind
how to get onto the farm
that I dream of?
how to make a career from
what i can make with my own two hands?
I don't want to fit into this new society any longer
I want something more than this...
I spend every second, it seems, day dreaming of a simpler life. Not an easier one, just one that makes more since to me. I want to grow my food, or hunt for it. I want to truly appreciate everything that i have. I want the mountains looking over me. I want to use my body. I want a family. I want a home I am proud of, a home of my building. I want to toughen my hands and open my heart. This life's left me bitter and searching. I want to learn. I want to meet good people... who can teach me new things. i want to find faith in humanity. I want to try harder. I need to focus or nothing will come of me... I want to feel closer to the soil. I want the courage to befriend those of interest to me. I don't want anything else.